Episode 25 - My Porsche.

Tml early morning is my driving test. and i can say that i'll be extremely glad once it's over, so i don't have to think so much about it. today's driving lesson was quite fun, as i haven't touched a car in like 3 weeks due to exam prep. and now there's another exam awaiting for me. i'm just scared for immediate failure.zzzzzzzz.
and i'm a bit rusty in my lane changing, and my vertical parking is FAIL. -.-' at least everything else is still as good or even better then before. hahahax. and gear change is sooo fun. =D
Well i guess i'm sufficiently prepared for tml already. Now to just make sure i dun have the jitters and screw everything up. just treat it like a normal lesson.. i guess. hahahax. but i do really crazy things in lessons.

i wonder if she's sleeping now already... nvr reply to my latest sms. and she's not online either. i get a hunch that she kinda feels as i do... but i just cannot put on finger on it. and it's really bugging me. sigh.. really miss you. =(

better pass tml, so i can use the car to show off. hahahx. GG.

Episode 24 - The Eternal Flame

There's something in all of us, that makes us perservere through adversity, and to face challenges never seen before, even when the pain is too much to bear.

The hope of something better spurs us on to greater heights, and at the end of it all, we feel that it has been worth it.

This is the Eternal Flame.

Listening to Freedom Call's - The Eternal Flame, makes me feel i'm invincible. Amazing but true. Really uplifting song.
I really wonder what would happen if i bought that bangle for her. Will it be another bad investment by me.. although that's what i think that will be the most likely scenario. sigh. sucks.

tml winter shopping with brian and ken and zj. must make sure those 3 dun freeze to death in japan. hahhax. =D

Episode 23 - All i want for Christmas is you =)

hahax. had a scare yesterday when Mindef sent me a call-up at 10pm? wth. omg la. bryan told me i had nothing to worry coz they send like 6 months earlier, and i tot it was fine.. until i went home to access it the website. and Pes review on the 30th ? omg la . i'm in japan. hahax. got so panicky, but i decided i would call camp tml and see how. Turned out need to call HRC, and they are damn nice la. to NSmen maybe. -.-' and changed it to Jan 13th, first day of sch wootz. extra holiday. =D

Driving test this sat. hope all goes well, then i can bring her out for a SPIN! =D wad a fantasy i'm living in. -.-''''' doubt it will ever happen.

Left for Dead 2 later, and with the motley crue of Ken, Dh, Brian and me, i think we can overcome all the stages la. =)

oh my oh my oh my. why is that bangle so expensive. die la. i'm only going to Japan with 700 spare.... need to buy crackers... Danver's "toys"... my Gundam =( .. souvenirs for others.... and this bangle is gonna wipeout half my cash. PLZ pray there is a christmas promotion. hahax.

Well i guess the most i can do is to fufill one of her christmas wishes. =)
Let's go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Episode 22 - That's the scary part. I didn't know if I should smile, crack up, scream or run.

Now ladies and gentlemen, this quote above comes from The Wizard of Oz, and it really sums up how i feel at this point.

My emotions are like a roller-coaster right now, and i don't know how i should approach this. I feel like taking action, but i really HATE myself when i take action and i know something will screw up.

This sucks, but on one hand i cannot ignore the fact that i've grown to like her more and more.

The problem with me is, the more time i spend with someone, the more the tendency to stick with that person and as a result, like them. It's a bad habit, but i cannot help it. sighhh.

Tumblr looks good but i still prefer sticking to this old blogging type. more personal. =)
Well, no point thinking about it and just continue with what i'm doing now..... hope that someday she'll think of me as more then a friend.... hopefully....

Town tml again. i better get some nice clothes for japan. hahahax... =D

Episode 21 - So which path do i take? Depends where you want to go.

The quote above is a convo btw Alice and the Chesire cat, and i felt that it's the main problem in a lot of things. i'm just too indecisive, and i really cannot feel my own thoughts. Kinda sad but after so much heartbreaking, i've conditioned myself to be extra extra careful. sigh. -.-'

after exams le. SW was killer. but since everybody tot it was so, guess i'll do fine. before exams complaining about no time to do things. but after exams there's nothing to be done. sigh. i'm bored to bits. can only play L4D2 on friday. so today effectively i have nothing.. Elaine hasn't replied me about swimming at my condo, SO I HAF NO IDEA WHAT TO DO ARGH.

Can only silently read books. sianz. looks like i can go and read the 1200 pages book about coffee le. i guess today is just a relaxed and moderated day......... BORINGGGGG.

Today plz end fast. i want to enjoy all the activities that i have lined up..